5th: Contemplations. Oh, and the answer is ARIZONA! :)

Dear Everyone,

So today i found some creepy dude in my back yard, a mean dude broke someones heart. Why are men so terrible!? I feel like Carrie from Sex and the City pondering question about men, but sometimes I really wonder whether the joys of a relationship are really worth the heartache if it doesn't work out.

Why is it that men always know just how to get us? The emotional attachment for women is huge but for men? They don't seem to feel anything sometimes. Its so frustrating because they can just walk away unscathed but we have to carry around all these emotions for ages. even when I hear of a boy being broken up with by a girl, they just seem to rebound so much quicker than we do.

But why? Is it a science thing? Is it in our DNA to just care more? Do we care about every day things more than men do? Maybe. But it seems when it comes to their sports teams and how good their cars are, they seem so involved. Why can't they be that attentive when it comes to girls and relationships?

Now don't get me wrong, I am an optimist. Besides feeling like the above paragraphs are totally valid and completely correct, I also feel like there are some out there that do care, and will care. I can't help it. No matter how many times i watch someone get their heart broken, or have it done myself - I can't help but feel like there is someone out there for them that will make it all worth it. Do I get that impression from movies? Probably. But I know that kind of love and kindness is out there in the world. It's a fact. I just feel like it takes far too long to get there.

Anyway I know that was a big ramble. But it just bothers me sometimes. But I'm hoping i'm right when it comes to love conquering all. It would be something splendid to watch. I look forward to going to this girls wedding and watching her kids grow up. I know she'll find true happiness; even if there are a few bumps in the road on the way to Arizona ;).

I shall sign off this post with a Goodbye, Good Luck, and a Merry Christmas!!!

Love Janelle. xx